Thoughts are dangerous. Especially when a person chooses thoughts based upon fear, hate and competition.
I lived with those people. The irresponsible.
I faced their shadows and felt their pain. I gained their weight and took their views as my own. I have regrets. Regret deleting my posts. Regret selling my favorite items.
I compared my work and competed. I fell. Landed in the lava and burnt to a crisp.
My high spirit found a new way and a brighter day. I faced those challenges and I learned. I look back in reflection of my choices. I contemplate how I could have lived differently. I am consumed by the past.
I forget to look forward. To be grateful for what I still have and what is to come. I forget magic is real when I become numb to these thoughts.
I pray and I pray. One of these days, I will look back and see no regrets. I want to see the Gold I paint my life with.
Power is in the presence of Now.
xoxox, hello, is it me you’re looking for?
Illustration by Cielo Moreno-Garcia