Thoughts are dangerous. Especially when a person chooses thoughts based upon fear, hate and competition.
I lived with those people. The irresponsible.
I faced their shadows and felt their pain. I gained their weight and took their views as my own. I have regrets. Regret deleting my posts. Regret selling my favorite items.
I compared my work and competed. I fell. Landed in the lava and burnt to a crisp.
My high spirit found a new way and a brighter day. I faced those challenges and I learned. I look back in reflection of my choices. I contemplate how I could have lived differently. I am consumed by the past.
I forget to look forward. To be grateful for what I still have and what is to come. I forget magic is real when I become numb to these thoughts.
I pray and I pray. One of these days, I will look back and see no regrets. I want to see the Gold I paint my life with.
Power is in the presence of Now.
xoxox, hello, is it me you’re looking for?
Illustration by Cielo Moreno-Garcia
She was crying to me; she told me all the issues in her relationship. She told me her family was in a depression and she had to take care of her younger sister. She told me how she had given up her creative craft to be the woman of the house. I cried. She sobbed. I tried to hug her. She was numb to physical nurturing.
I left. I drove to work. I could have filled Lake Mead with the tears I cried. I begged and pleaded to any angels listening to send her love, light and a way she can support herself and her sister. I wiped my eyes. I walked into work.
I saw her the next day. She was glowing. A previous employer called offering the opportunity of a life time. She hugged me and walked away. I cried with gratitude.
I have not seen her since…I have a feeling she choose the road of challenges…
Your prayers are heard; positive or negative. Please be careful of what you wish upon another. We can all use the blessings and less of the hate. Think about it; the more blessings you send. The more you will receive.