Caught Me Red Minded

He asked me to help move stuff from his apartment above mine into his new place. Sweet guy he is. Of course I agreed.

In the moving van he laughed and said “I assumed you were asleep because it was quite.”

I wanted to pretend I did not know what he was speaking of. I wanted to act like my thoughts are not as fucking loud as they are.

Who was I kidding? I knew for a damn fact he was not talking about the amount I spoke out loud, because that was none. I kept to myself in that apartment room. I never played music. Occasionally I spoke to my snake, Seshat, but never out loud.

He confirmed one of my fears…strangers can hear my thoughts

xoxox, the habitual thinker

I Feel You

Sometimes I laugh at jokes I don’t understand.
I laugh to fit in.
To pretend my mind isn’t wondering the depths of your Soul.

I couldn’t tell you that.
No words seem to explain how easily I can shift into another being.
Feel the highs and the lows of the roller coaster you never ride.

I love thrill.
The adrenaline reminds me I am alive.
The chaos gives me a reason to appreciate the peace.

xoxox, you’ve been found

Illustration from Nikki Valencia aka SoulBunni