He asked me to help move stuff from his apartment above mine into his new place. Sweet guy he is. Of course I agreed.
In the moving van he laughed and said “I assumed you were asleep because it was quite.”
I wanted to pretend I did not know what he was speaking of. I wanted to act like my thoughts are not as fucking loud as they are.
Who was I kidding? I knew for a damn fact he was not talking about the amount I spoke out loud, because that was none. I kept to myself in that apartment room. I never played music. Occasionally I spoke to my snake, Seshat, but never out loud.
He confirmed one of my fears…strangers can hear my thoughts
xoxox, the habitual thinker
I just had to stop and take a picture of this duck when I noticed it had a deformed beak. As usual, I grabbed out my phone and asked the ducks if it was okay that I took a photo to share.
As I began snapping pictures, the deformed duck’s friend decided to pose. Isn’t that extraordinary?
People say animals know, while others say they have no idea. I like to believe that animals do know, and they know everything.
Others say animals have no egos. But, is that possible when being observed by Ego itself?
I mean, this duck literally posed for a picture. If that is not Duck Ego, then what is?
Could the deformed duck have told me no and I choose not to hear it? Could the deformed duck’s friend decided to create a distraction in order to take attention away from the already sad deformed duck’s beak?
Does anyone even care?
xoxox, what the duck
I wrote the screenplay for this short after thinking about the one I let get away…
He played all the cards of his heart and I was too serious to allow his love into my life. That is when he walked away and never looked back.
Originally the stack of cards was meant for the male actor to flip, but, after a few practice runs, I decided I wanted to do the flipping. I knew I could tap into the energy from the man I let get away and I did.
Eye of Horus Ace: signifying my full sight of the man I was beckoning
Flying Ace: signaling that I was ready to flow with the wind of the relationship
Shot Ace: my dying heart after he did not mirror my emotions
Broken Heart Ace: how I felt after playing all the cards of my heart
Joker Ace: my question to him
Goddess Ace: his way of showing he is not ready to accept his feminine energy, but she is there…
I wanted to keep this incredibly short 1) because y’alls attention span is so small… 2) it is a pain in the ass to try to get y’all to watch a video on youtube 3) I wanted to keep it to the point with no room to sever the emotions.
David Cuf blessed the film with his track A New Earth. The video cuts were created before I fit the music and it was amazing to see it come together so effortlessly.
Also, a thanks to Yoni Zoldan for starring in this on such short notice and Moonshot AV for the film.
Nik Piazza created the illustration used as the featured image and this film was shot in Badlands Saloon, in Las Vegas, Nevada.
Thank you for watching and drop a comment below with your opinions!
xoxox, your favorite Creative Director
I know I am not the “pretty girl”
Internal goof ball wrapped in wires
Their perceptions; my attire
Now my younger sisters have topped me
Weird because that use to be me
And it seems they don’t see me
It might be the new look in my Eye
xoxox, blinding them with my shine
Illustration by Nikki Valencia aka SoulBunni
A thought comes in and you meet it with every possible way it could work, couldn’t work, what you would and would not get from it, and how to go about proceeding.
Y I K E S! Let that shit go!
Take the thought as it comes. If it has to do with a question you have asked, then Listen. If it leads you to a person or place, GO! If it tells you to link two people, DO IT!
Let go of all the considerations. They are holding you back. The spirits of the Universe know what you need and how to get it. They will lead you.
xoxox, Jesus take the wheel
Illustration from Nikki Valencia aka SoulBunni
Do you hold back from singing and dancing in worry of be judged?
Imagine a moment where you are dancing in complete love for the music and someone laughs. Do you take it personally? Do you stop? Do you walk away?
Imagine a moment where you bolt out in song; a voice from your heart. Imagine a person interrupting to mention how “out of tone” you are. How does that feel? Does it hurt? Do you begin to judge your voice? Do you decide to stop sharing your voice?
Did you answer YES to all those questions? If so, consider this: Those judging are using their minds to manipulate their projection. Not to say there is anything wrong with controlling beautiful movements. We can all appreciate an amazing choreographed dance. I know we love hearing Alicia Keys or John Legend.
If we can love those who practice, we can love those who move through Soul. Imagine a world where we flow together. All would dance without judging their movement. All would sing from the heart.
If you have not had a chance to sing and dance with a group who loves your flow, get in contact with me. I will make it happen.
xoxox, I Feel You
Illustration from Nikki Valencia aka SoulBunni